stagnant

I always feel that my life is always so stagnant. I do not find fun, excitement or rather great challenges in my life. I know I am smart, my brain works wonders only that sometimes, I just fail because of the lack of experience.

The reason why I left AC2 International was because I felt that I had no more challenges or difficulties in my working world with the exception of meeting new people. That explains why I left and joined Resorts World Sentosa. When I stepped in, I told myself, “Welcome to the Corporate World!”, “Welcome to working with idiots who only use hierarchy to press you down but not intelligence!” Especially after my lessons from sevenatenine, or rather Monique Kwok herself. Being an energy giver instead of an energy sucker. I took my lessons that I’ve learnt and brought it over to RWS, especially when I am managing my staff. I swear, no one at the age of 21 could do whatever I am doing. It felt challenging, it felt like nice, and it felt very exciting. Especially when your direct superior is a complete idiot and when he or she doesn’t know how to manage staff. I started to love my staff even more after catching up with Monique Kwok last month. I absorb whatever I could get from her. The 1st thing I said when I saw her was, “Monique, I need you to mind-fuck me!” And she gladly did. She rejuvenated me as I felt that she was my only energy giver. No one could think like her. A person who is a GM by the age of 30 and she is running her own business (just a small outlet) in which it’s earning more than a million annually. It’s great going to her outlet. The energy and vibes from the staff are just amazing and especially from herself.

I came back to RWS more charged up. Better as I can ever get. However, I had a fellow supervisor who I feel that is not even on par with me. I had to work with an energy sucker. I do not mind if he sucks energy out of me, because I know I wouldn’t allow him to. But he is sucking energy out of my staff, that saddens me. Because I used to have a whole bunch of happy and positive staff and now, it has become horrible. The people I am working with aren’t happy and every single day, there are loads of complaints from them. I am going to work mainly because my fellow supervisor, Ashley and the rest of the staff. Right now, I just feel like giving up and you know why? Because he is not up to my level. All he knows is to suck up to the superiors and fuck staff for nothing. He tries to win staff over but it is not working.

I am waiting for certain situations to happen. And if it doesn’t work…

It’s time for the FINAL SHOWDOWN.