Mild

My head feels so heavy again. After 9 hours of sleep, I still feel that like dozing off.

I woke up to his gentle kisses and warm embraces.
“Are you upset with me?”
“Yes.”
“Is it because we didn’t go for supper? Or is it because I didn’t hug you tightly?”
I just nod my head to his last question.
“I was feeling hot. Sorry bibi. Shall we go for breakfast?”

I looked at the time, 7.35am. Ya what! Breakfast and then what?! He will be late for work. He dragged me out of bed but he decided to buy breakfast home. I ended up in bed again. His 10 minutes felt like a minute of my shut eye. He opened the room door, “Hurry Hurry! Breakfast is here.”
I tied my hair, washed up and dragged my feet to the dining table, settle my bum with a loud tump. Remove the covers of the disposable wooden chopsticks, unwrapped the paper and the bee hoon mee unfolded with a sunnyside up egg tucked on the everest. It’s just so nice to feel so pampered again, and like everyday. I don’t wash the toilet, I don’t sweep the floor, I don’t cook, I don’t iron, I don’t wash clothes! For the first time, I don’t have to do all these things. I am, afterall, his pampered, yang or, little girl! He washes my clothes, he irons my clothes, he doesn’t cook but buy meals, he washes the toilet! HAHA! Actually no, he said that he is kind of afraid of ironing my clothes because he said that I am retarded, I am too much of a perfectionist. I have to see no crease. But, come on, I won’t complain! It will be good enough for me because I am not the one doing it. I am just so glad, after 10 months of being together, all these didn’t die halfway. Not like others, they send chui kuey to your door and stop after 3 months. I thought I would experience the same for Mr Koo. Branching to the 3rd month of our relationship, he used to buy 2 bottles of my favorite milk tea and send it to my office almost everyday, sometimes, there will be strawberries at home waiting for me. (at that point of time, he didn’t get his car yet. He walked under the hot sun somemore!) He send me this lovely message that I still clearly remember till date,

Baby, don’t be so stress out, if it’s housework, I will help, if it’s money, I will contribute, if it’s love, it would be unconditional.

That message just touches me, I didn’t believe it in because I so thought that it was the honeymoon period. But now, it is still happening. Things are never monotonous despite us doing the same things everyday. He goes to work earlier than I do, he finishes work earlier than I do, and he picks me up after work, and we will either head home, watch a movie, go for dinner, or supper and not to forget, we bitch to each other about the time we were not together and how we deal with stupid people.

I was talking to a friend earlier, she thought that you need to give up stuff when you are attached, and if it comes to marriage, it will be worse. Well, I shared my thoughts with her and told her that, giving up isn’t about loving a person. If you love a person so much, you would not give things up. For example, Mr Koo plays too much games, he did not give it up, it just came to a point that spending more time with me feels better than playing his games. He rather spend time with me than to play his Virtual Fighter and Street Fighter and I will always ask him to play his games, to train and not be rusty. Giving up is basically an action that is not willing in a relationship. But, if you do it willingly, it’s not giving up, you just feel that, that person is worth much more compared to what you enjoy doing. For me, I did not give up in partying. I just feel that partying is not as worth as my love. I rather spend more time, seeing him, looking at him. Not like in the past, I feel like partying and I feel restricted when I am not doing so. It’s just a different feeling that I learnt and experience in this relationship. What Bibi said was right, this is my FIRST mature relationship.

Down to work, I can’t help snapping pictures at work when it gets too boring.

Alright, I am gonna do some homework tonight. But I am gonna meet mum and sister right now! Last but not least, I hope god give strength to people who think they are hell of good, and they know everything and teach them not to feed on their ego.